12:40 a.m. - 2011-09-11
I'm sick and tired of feeling dead inside. And empty.
I just want to be loved. I just want someone who cares. I want someone to be there for me and not make me feel so guilty for needing them so much. I get that I have issues--too many to count, but it's unfair when I get blamed for it.
I guess I'm supposed to be alone? No one can deal with me or handle me at my worst. No one can deal with the fact that I get attached so quickly. It seems like no one understands me.
It's not their fault. I hurt them too. I have a tendency to "use" the people I care in order to "fix" my own feelings of loneliness and sadness.
I guess I deserve rejection.