11:45 p.m. - 2009-04-13
merciless
im pretty sure life wasn't meant to be this unfair/rotten/horrible/messed up.
im so tired of fighting, but i wont let the devil get the best of me. God is up to something, i know it..just gotta hold on, but for how long? sometimes, i just want to stretch out my hands and just beg God for mercy upon my life, cause im honestly so tired of this constant struggle, with depression, with fear, with instability. im just tired of the fleeting friendships, the momentary joys, and all the other crap that life has thrown at me.
I need more grace.
and definitely, way more mercy.
p.s. best friend, i miss you..more than you'll ever know.
